ITS TIME FOR YOU TO GO

As our journey began
I knew it was too good to be true
All these perfect sunshine
Were just refelctions of Burning black candles
Grief accents in to me every second
the cancer that killed you
eats me alive inside’
cant help myself from going numb
try to cover this tumor with cotton



Swear to you i will find someone
If you promise to be my guardian angel
Watching me from abound
I know im gonna hold you close
When i walk in to the other side

Every step we took
I protected you as my own life
Time has not been fair on you
As these bright light hide under dark clouds
Those silver lines is where you heading
Leaving me to face this world on my own
As this haunting thought scrawls down my spine
Would this be the last day im gonna speak to you,hear you….touch you



Dont know whos to be blamed
Our fairytale turned in to my worst nightmare
Should I blame the one up above
would wage a thousand wars against him
For that one serene day
To tell you things I havent told you

But my LOVE…its time for you to leave
You have fought enough….been a long hard journey
As sermons of heaven welcomes you
Lie down to sleep in peace
I will keep us alive……….
When i see you on the other side

GOOD AND EVIL

And I see that slowly your tears are drying

And I see an ocean made by your crying

And the ocean that’s within…
And I see misery to forget it I must

And all of the memories are lost

And the ocean is here within me

Flows on like a neverending tear
In us all there are two separate sides

That which is evil and that which is good

Some people live by one side and others by the second

Both of them have a little bit of the other

But it must remain clear that the two depend on each other

Remember, evil is a part of the good and not the opposite

There is no sadness without joy and there is no joy without pain

There is no holy without impure and there can be no blasphemy withoutholyness,

Thus the two sides must live in harmony
The storm still rages…
Which side are you in….

i figured my side…what about you?

Are you with me or against me to strike a balance!!!!!

LONGEST POEM I EVER WROTE...THE SEARCHING EYES

She thought I was her grand-daughter

And he raised his hands to bless me,

But they saddened in dismay..

Coz I was not the one they were searching
A hall full of loneliness

And circumstances of weariness,

I saw through the teary eyes

The pain of not seeing a dear’s sight
They ditched their sadness

And wiping their sorrows

Saw my happy face

And thought about their grand daughters
I could feel their want to be loved and to be heard

I was helpless but happy

I was kind because of sympathy,

I was sad coz I could see

The pain of not seeing a dear’s sight
Every sentence I spoke

They had hundred tales to tell

I sat their patiently,

Listening but feeling the pain
The pain that they lived

The pain that shadowed their love

The pain those ‘searching eyes’ felt

The pain of not seeing a dear’s sight
The pain of being good parents,

The pain for loving their children

The pain for striving to make ends meet

The pain of being left alone
They did their best for their sons

But were left alone

Their searching eyes still searched on

For their near and dear ones
How heartless can one be

To leave their parents to die

To forget the countless gifts

And to forget that they still are alive
You held her hand when you fell down

Your mother she was.

You hugged him as a kid

Your dad, you remember?
The endless nights they kept awake

Finding joy in your peaceful sleep

They endless times they were happy

Watching you grow and learn
But fools I would call them

They got nothing in return

Yes their expenses are paid..

But who will answer their questions

And those searching eyes
Who will care for them?

Who will feed them?

When they are helpless but hungry.

Who will talk to them?

When they need you the most
Their letters are never answered

Their prayers seldom heard

Its only gestures you see

And those searching eyes
The phone rings and you pick it up

You think its your wifeBut instead the manager calls in

To tell you that your father has died.
Now you feel the silenceAnd the sudden rush of thoughts

You feel you haven’t spoken enough

You feel they were cheated
Now you feel the pain.

Of losing someone dear

Now you feel the pain

Of not seeing that dear’s sight.

And you know who is the culprit

Of those searching eyes.

FATHER'S FALLING ANGEL...MY SONG

….

Pull these scars off my eyes

Lost from the world

A child searching for her dad………

You left me there alone..

With time to rape my world…

And I lived through the years a girl….

Pleading why?!!!!!

I thank God for my Friends love

Through years of broken innocence

He carried me through the light…….

In my dreams last night

I saw your face………

You held me and washed away my tears

Then I woke to realize you’re gone.

When you realize that fate is gone.

Just look at me and say goodbye…….

So tell me how you feel……

So tell me how………..

As these years and time go racing by

I’m drowning in solitude again

No, this won’t kill me….

In my dreams last night

I saw your face..You held me and washed away my tears….

Then I woke to realize you’re gone………

I’m drowning in solitude again……..
This won’t kill me….

cause i have him with me…

i have my life in my hands

What I Feel

Better it would be for me

And better it would have been

Had I not been born, not grown

Not been brought into the world

Not had to come to this earth

Not been suckled for the world

If I’d died a three-night-old

Been lost in my swaddling band

I’d have needed but a span of cloth

A span more of wood,But a cubit of goof earth

Two words from the priest

Three verses from the cantor

One clang from the bell

Better it would be for me

And better it would have been

Had I not been born, not grown

Not been brought into the world

Not had to come to this earth

Not been suckled for the world

I´d rather die,

I´d rather be, better unborn